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[May. 28th, 2008|07:35 pm] |
This journal is now
FRIENDS ONLY
Sorry everyone, I am just getting a little paranoid that people are reading my LJ that I don't WANT reading my LJ. So if I have not added you as a friend yet, comment here and I will do so if I feel comfortable with you reading my stuff :). |
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[May. 28th, 2008|01:21 pm] |
Up to 32 animals...
Wish me luck on finding an apartment now lol |
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[May. 25th, 2008|01:10 am] |
New AIM screen name: ToxicAzaleah
I will still be on MistressSchulo but I just want everyone to be aware that if you are contacted on that SN, that is me :) |
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[May. 24th, 2008|01:26 am] |
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Got fired this morning...
One more thing to add to the list of things in my life that my anxiety problems fuck up... |
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[May. 22nd, 2008|03:33 pm] |
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I have changed so much in the past few months, that I am starting to forget who I was...
I was just a young girl looking to have fun and fool around...
What I have become is a more responsible, passionate version of who I was.
I still like to go out and have fun, but I have finally learned to take life by the balls and do what I have to to become what I want to become. I feel like I have grown so much and had so many reality checks over the past month that I have finally learned what life is all about.
Most of you won't notice a change at all... only those who know me really well (my sister, Will... and that's probably it). However, what I was is fading away, what I am becoming is getting stronger and stronger by the day. I am Azaleah... I am my passion. I am what I have always wanted to be.
Now I know why Schulo always hated herself... it's because it was never what I wanted to be. It's interested to see what a person can become after only a few months in the real world.
I'm still on the borderline... I am still who I was... I will ALWAYS be partly what I was... but I am different now.
Sorry for the long rant-like entry... I just needed to get it out. |
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[May. 16th, 2008|01:11 am] |
OMG FURRY DRAMA!!!!
WTF?! |
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[May. 12th, 2008|02:22 am] |
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I want everyone who reads my journal to post a random comment about:
WICKED: THE MUSICAL
then post this in your journal, but the topic should be something else that is happy. |
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[May. 9th, 2008|11:05 pm] |
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So I watch now as everything falls apart...
... And I thought I was lonely BEFORE...
Now, I have NO ONE at all... |
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[May. 5th, 2008|08:14 am] |
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So I'm totally bummed that everyone had such a great time at skyjay's meet, but I couldn't be there cuz of work. Honestly, I feel like I'm gunna be scheduled to work every Saturday this summer, and not make it to any of the meets. This sucks the most cuz these are the ONLY times I get to see my friends, cuz now I live in Connecticut where I know no one.
And on top of this, I am sick as a dog. Congested, coughing, sneezing, stomachaches, body pains, the whole nine yards. I hope this Augmentin starts kicking in soon.
Hope I see you guy at SOME point in time... I miss you all dearly... |
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[May. 1st, 2008|08:27 pm] |
First day at the new job, and I can't say I have too much to complain about. My feet hurt and I am tired, but that was to be expected after I have spend the last 3 months doing practically nothing. Lots of stock involved but I was told that would die down once the summer came cuz there would be more people needing to be rung up.
Overall, I am quite pleased. And am now happy to get to just sit on my computer and talk to people :). |
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[Apr. 30th, 2008|11:24 pm] |
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( Meme stolen from Nally )
Just got done feeding all my reptiles. The list is as follows:
75 1" long crickets
75 3/4" long crickets
6 live fuzzie mice (baby mice)
Then dethaw:
1 adult mouse
2 frozen pinkie mice (day old mice)
2 fuzzie mice
Then dust with calcium and split up accordingly into 15 different cages.
Always such a fun day of the week :). |
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[Apr. 30th, 2008|03:55 pm] |
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So If any of you happen to have seen this name hanging around me lately: Azaleah Amaryllis, you have probably wondered what the fuck it means. Well here is my explanation.
People change. We grow older, and we learn. We meet people who change us, sometimes for the better, sometimes for the worse. When I was younger, I was Stasia. She never really left me, rather she turned into a shapeshifter and only appears every so often in my life. I grew up and became Schulo, who you all know quite well by now. But I have been living on my own for the past 4 months, and it has taught me some things. I have changed as a person. I have learned what my passions are, what my life is to be dedicated to. When I am with my animals, I am a different person than you all know. When I am even AROUND animals (namely reptiles), I am different. A new persona has grown inside of me. Her name is Azaleah. She is a gila monster (one of the world's 2 venomous lizards). She is kind and sweet but she knows what she is talking about. She has a kind of connection with reptiles that Schulo had, but it has grown stronger and stronger over the years. She appeared around a year ago, but living on my own with only animals surrounding me has made her presence grow to the point where I feel very strongly with her. By now, Stasia has almost completely died off. After all I have been through, my childhood innocence is hard to even find anymore. However, Azaleah is almost a manifestation of a kind of adult innocence (not like naivety, rather more like relaxation).
To everyone, I can still be Schulo. If anything, I most likely AM Schulo most of the time. But Azaleah will be around sometimes. Most likely not at furmeets, but in my day to day life.
I didn't mean for this post to confuse anyone, I just wanted to confirm with everyone who this Azaleah person was and why I was referring to myself as her.
And a thank you to Kira for being the first to draw this character for me :) (points at icon above) |
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[Apr. 17th, 2008|11:16 pm] |
Sorry for the emo-ness. Everything's gunna be ok.
It just hurts when you lose trust in something you once trusted.
The sad part, I have lost trust in my pet, Buster. He's turned nasty over the past few weeks. Sadly, I have to find him a new home.
Hopefully, though, wherever he goes next, he will be happy. |
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[Apr. 17th, 2008|06:08 am] |
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So after an hour long conversation with my father I have learned one thing:
I am an ungrateful bitch that doesn't appreciate anything I have and I only want more and more...
I was compared to a rich kid that has every new model of toy on the market, but plays with them once then throws them to the side because nothing is special to them, while a poor kid who gets one toy will cherish it for years because that is all they can afford to have.
So perhaps I am a spoiled, ungrateful piece of shit and I deserve to drown in my own debt.
(no, my dad did not SAY this to me, this is just what I got out of the conversation). |
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[Apr. 6th, 2008|08:20 pm] |
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ZOMG!!!
New icon from Kalika featuring my lizard, Buster!
I've been needing a reptile related icon and finally got one.
SOOOOO excited!!!
And it's SO accurate!!!
Here's a picture of the REAL Buster lol.
<3 my reptiles and Kalika! |
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[Mar. 31st, 2008|10:00 am] |
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Poll #1163447 Gay Pride
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 12Can a person have gay pride if they are not gay?
I know this seems silly, but everyone seems to pick on me because I want to put a gay pride sticker on the back of my car even though I am not gay. I believe that people can have pride in something that they are not. Some people would say that these people are "supporters" of gay pride, but either way, shouldn't a supporter be allowed to put a sticker on the back of their car? And after all, I am slightly bi. So does that mean you have to be a certain amount of "gay" to have pride in its cause?
Just a question for everyone out there. Don't answer if you don't want to. I was just curious to see if I am wrong. |
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[Mar. 29th, 2008|11:03 pm] |
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I love reptile shows :) |
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[Mar. 27th, 2008|04:52 pm] |
So who wants to donate to the "Schulo misses her monitor and found another completely tame one and wants it really bad but doesnt currently have enough money to buy it" fund?! Hes in California and its 100 bucks to send him on the plane across the country, so thats where my biggest fallback is. The monitor itself is only 350 bucks, which isnt bad for a TAME monitor.
I wish I was good at art so I could sell some art to make money for him.
Schulo is in love :( |
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